I am sitting here in my room drinking a rum and coke out of a prego glass trying to solitify my thoughts into something that is coherent and not just some rambling bullshit. Lately, I have been drug down by negativity and it was not until I was at the bottom pit of this negative environment that I realized something that I tried to live my life by several months ago and that is: if you surround yourself with negativity and negative people with negative attitudes all the time you become a lonely and negative person....so true.
Lately, I have been fighting with the significant other and the fighting was something very trivial and not what I wanted to do. It is not worth losing someone to prove you were right or wrong...so I opted out of the fight and finally he joined me. The fight was something related to my job and until recently my job has kind of been a love hate relationship for me. I love my guys but sometimes it can be very stressful. It wasn't until recently that I finally realized the significance of my work....not the significance of what I do for my clients but rather what they do to me. I don't think I can explain the crazyiness of my work, but I guess I just realized arguing with Robert wasn't the answer it was the problem. My goal is to calm down, take a step back and enjoy my environment.
Thursday I got to see little Emma (Brian's Baby) she is so small, yet so beautiful. As soon as I finally got to hold her my heart melted for her and I fell in love with this seven-pound bundle. I am a proud aunt and future corupter of this baby and she is great!
Other than that I am going to Malibu in a few days to see some old buds so it should be a good time. I am excited for my short vacation because as much as I do like my work-I am in need of a break. These few days will also give me some insight into my next move in life and maybe help me get my priorities straight. What can I say I'm stir crazy...Missouri is cold.
Stay Warm,
Peace,LOve, and rock n roll,
Jeannine
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